Good morning!
With all the social media craze going on, I figured I would start with a little blogging.
I want to be able to keep everyone updated with my prep as well as keep posting on my social media while learning about the YouTube thing. It isn't easy, especially when you are in prep, working full time, and basically trying to keep your life together.
The last few weeks haven't been easy and I really haven't been able to talk about anything personal with anyone except my 2 best friends. Other than what is going on personally, I have been keeping my focus on dieting, water, and training. Work hasn't been the busiest, which isn't really too good. I started prep at 19 weeks out. I am not a little less than 15 weeks! It is CRAZY that I have been doing this for a little more than 4 weeks now. It honestly seems to fly by and before I know it, I will be single digits out. Every day, my relationships around me seem to grow. I am still very close to my gym partner and coach, which is sometimes hard to maintain when you move away, but I have. I have kept in touch with my gym family and missing them is one of the struggles I deal with every day.
People always ask why I moved away and it is something that I have been exploring lately. I moved back in May, for what? Before the move, I wanted to move back to Defiance, it was just a place I knew I belonged. A place that I could call home. I had over stayed my welcome in Canton. It just wasn't a place for me anymore. City life, wasn't my thing anymore. The only thing that held me back from moving so quickly was job status. I couldn't move without a job, that would be CRAZY! Well in April 2017, I had a small feeling that my roommate was going to tell me she was moving out. A week later, it happened. I had to sit down when she told me, I teared up, but I quickly got over it and just knew it was something that was happening for a reason. I was recently single, I was in training/dieting and I was so badly wanting to live on my own.
As quick as she told me that she was moving out, is as quick as I got a phone call from a friend in Defiance stating that there was a job opening at a dealership here and I should give them a call. I brushed it off, not thinking anything of it. 3 days later, my friend shoots me a text stating that he talked to the Sales Manager and he was interested in hearing from me. At that moment, I knew this was it. This was going change my world forever and the one thing to come to my mind, my ex. I knew he was back in Defiance, I knew I had to say something. I did the phone interview, I drove to Defiance a few days later for the actual interview, and that is when I knew, I knew I was leaving and it was time to contact my ex and let him know.
I didn't move because of him, by no means. I moved because this was the next part of my journey, this was what I was supposed to do. How was I going to overcome the adversity of moving away from my family as well as my gym family and not to mention, being now only miles, not hours, away from the man I love so very much?! I did it without hesitation. I had tears and I had moments where nothing, absolutely NOTHING made sense. Why, why did I do this?
I have accepted now that I am supposed to be here, I am meant to be on this journey, here in Defiance, but why? That is something I am still exploring today, but I am paying attention to the signs around me. Being less 15 weeks out for a show, I am meant to completely focus on me, this journey and to figure out in life, exactly what I want out of it. I am so excited to share this journey with everyone, more importantly I am so excited about changing my world, my life.
More to come later on. Thank you for reading. Trust me, there will be more!
